Navigating adulthood👣

As much as I wanted to rush the process of becoming an adult I’m grateful that I didn’t get here before God needed me to.

Though I had to navigate adult situations with a child’s mind, God always gave me wisdom. Just like Joseph God was with me through every adversity and celebration alike.

One of the chapters of my story that has made it most memorable so far is being able to take care of my mom. This has been a childhood dream of mine, now actualized. From doctor visits, to spending money and everything in between. I enjoy keeping her happy. In my moments of wavering faith she would remind me that God didn’t bring us this far to leave us. And sure enough a phone call would come, someone giving us money or food. For my mom, in her words “she loves seeing me in my element” and a part of that is doing life with me. She would always say whenever God blesses you He will bless me too and she’s absolutely correct. Understanding this keeps me aware of the immense responsibility that God has entrusted me with. As much as my obedience affects her positively, similarly my disobedience will affect her. This is why I’m careful in my decision making and all I do.

Watching her navigate her own faith journey with God has been encouraging and inspiring. Though she struggled to let go of the life she once knew, she surrendered it for The Pearl Of Great Price. Her obedience to God came in the form of leaving her job. By the grace of God the transition was smooth. As we reflect during our many discussions we are enlightened by God as to why she had to leave. This uninterrupted quality time with each other is what we both needed.

She’s been a voice of reason and an anchor when the storms of life arise. Her quiet strength brings a calm to my weary soul as she dries my tears and listens to my rants. I’m so blessed to have such an involved and supportive mom and it’s not a blessing I take for granted.

I’m quite intentional about stewarding this season well as God prepares me for marriage.

That was a hurdle God empowered me to overcome because the fear of not having my mom close by was daunting. I can peacefully say I’m in a better place regarding that transition but for now I’m focused on developing and strengthening our relationship.

Our in depth conversations allows us to unearth deep wounds and trauma. Making way for the tough conversations to be had and healing to take place. One encounter that I feel the need to share was the fact that I never felt like my mom stood up for me. I remember asking her how does it make you feel when people take advantage of me, doesn’t it make you angry? For reasons beyond my ability to comprehend my mother said “I don’t know how to answer you”? I was livid but God held me firm, I tried to understand her thought process in that moment. At the core of it was the fact that my mom could only stand up for me after she stood up for herself. The tears flowed and she embraced me and I felt a little lighter. Since that night we grew closer as I am grateful to God for it.

Our relationship has taught me the importance of maintaining the health of a relationship. These conversations have strengthened us and helped us to be more understanding and compassionate towards each other. I know many of you are still struggling with estranged relationships with your mothers, I pray you won’t lose hope. When God shows up for you, please understand that you have an active role to play in your healing. There will be things He will ask you to do that won’t be easy but will be necessary, be obedient. I pray that hearts will be healed and relationships restored for the glory of God, in Jesus name, amen.

Blessings💙

He is close to the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds- Psalm 34:18